Monthly Archives: February 2013

Passion

When people talk about passion, it is an yearning for something that one puts their whole heart into. They just can’t get enough of that something or someone. Well, this I thought I had about writing spending the past 20 years reading and learning, but another class and another editor says I have a long way to go. What the hell have I been doing these 20 years just wishing I was a writer and sitting on my hands? No! I just read and write. Why am I not better at what I thought I loved or was passionate about? Why, do I keep getting told I have a long way to go? People reading this those very few might see that this what I’m writing now had errors in it. Such as grammar, punctuation, spelling and others. Why can’t I get the help my cousin Wilson Rawls did?

You may have read some of my other posts, and if you have you may read a lot of me bitching and moaning about things. You might be sick of it well I’m sorry. I’m here to shed light on my life no matter how boring it might be. I have wanted to be an actor, a script writer. I wanted to be a great artist. Why did God allow me to live when my appendix ruptured? I wanted to do something more than guy bagging by Vid-Saver’ id=’_GPLITA_1′ href=’http://therealmoftrees.blogspot.com/2013/01/passion.html#’>groceries, but lately I think that is where my life is heading. I wanted to do YouTube videos, but they disabled my account because someone clicked repeatedly on a video and of course, when I disputed this, I didn’t write it well enough for them to reactivate it.

When I was in high school, I wanted to play football that didn’t work. I played baseball as a kid who went nowhere. I wanted to sing and be in a rock group, that didn’t work. I think I’m smart, but am I? I can’t dance. I can’t is so my word these last few days. I wanted to do voice-over work but living in Idaho, there is no school or help of any kind and no money you can’t move to a place that can help.

So, my passion for what I want to be and do is gone, and I don’t know where my life will go. I know my faith is so small an ant is too big.

So what do I do? Where do I go from here? I’ve done the college thing ran out of by Vid-Saver’ id=’_GPLITA_0′ href=’http://therealmoftrees.blogspot.com/2013/01/passion.html#’>loans and no degree to show for it. Those friends with their own businesses won’t hire me because I live to far, but the main thing is I have no education. I’m not fit I’m not hot I’m not female, so there are many things against me. So, please tell me what to do? My passion is gone. People say others have it worse, but why do I feel I’m living in the worst? (This I wrote off my meds. Still trying to get them.)

Passion



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Script for Issue 1 of The Legacy comic book

Disclaimer: This is unedited and may contain language that is not suitable for a young audience. Reader discretion advised.

          Page 1 Page 1

            Panel 1 Alister from a rooftop looks towards the church on
            the hill. Darkness consumes the sky but there is a small
            light piercing the sky above the church. Behind Alister
            sits his hovercycle. His sword is in its sheath on his
            back.

                              ALISTER
                    I can’t believe it’s been 10 years
                    since all this began, and I still
                    try to do good, but all I want to
                    do is rest. Rest it seems to be all
                    I think of when I should be
                    thinking of this city; think of my
                    city. I’m the one, the person that
                    was chosen. I was the one born to
                    this family. I must keep my head up
                    high when it seems this war will
                    never end. I know, however, that it
                    will end. I don’t know how I don’t
                    know when, but what I do know is
                    that it will end when you are
                    ready. This building so many times
                    I stood right here this spot, and
                    gazed out into the city, to hear
                    the cries of the people below. Oh
                    God God these dark skies I’m sick
                    of them. I want to see the sun
                    again. I want to see more than the
                    sliver of light that you shine on
                    the church. Oh, that church that
                    changed my life. God why did you
                    put it on that hill? Did you have
                    people build it so that you didn’t
                    have to move the hill? Like the
                    Bible said that you can move
                    mountains. Why am I still doing
                    this? Why am I again alone I
                    thought you would never leave or
                    forsake me?

          Page 2 Page 2: 2975A.D. Alister flashes back to when he
          finds out about his parents and sisters death.

            Panel 1 Taking up the top 3rd of the page: You see a
            church on the front of it, it says “Harvest Church;”
            behind the church in the distance you see the church on
            the hill.

                              ALISTER
                    I remember how I spiraled out of
                    control at least my life did. Okay,
                    I did too. It was at the church my
                    family had gone to for years. I had
                    gone when I was young, but when I
                    became a teenager they let me
                    decide what I wanted to do. So I
                    stopped going.

            Panel 2 Taking up the middle of the page: Inside the
            church, people standing, some with their hands up in the
            air, as they are singing.

                              ALISTER
                    I thought it was strange to see
                    people raise their hands and jump
                    up and down praising a being that
                    one couldn’t see.

            Panel 3 Taking up the bottom 3rd of the page: Inside the
            church, people sitting as the preacher is standing at his
            pulpit preaching.

                              ALISTER
                    As I recall the last service, for
                    what I was told later. Was talking
                    about…

                              PASTOR
                    Today we are going to talk about
                    the love of God, and his
                    forgiveness.

          Page 3 Page 3: 2975A. D. Alister’s flash back of his parents
          and sisters death. Part 2.

            Panel 1 People are leaving the church but a few are still
            standing around talking. The pastor comes up to a couple
            and their daughter.

                              PASTOR
                    Where’s your son Alister.

                              MOTHER
                    He didn’t want to come; he says
                    there is no God.

                              PASTOR
                    Oh, he is in the stage of his life
                    like others have been. The stage
                    that things that we can’t see must
                    be none existent or not real.

            Panel 2 Taking most of the page the church explodes.

            Panel 3 Alister stands at the funeral, a tear rolling down
            his cheek.

                              ALISTER
                    I can still remember what I thought
                    at the funeral.

                              ALISTER
                         (thinking)
                    Mom gave me a choice to go with
                    them, but I didn’t. Because I
                    didn’t, I mean I don’t believe in
                    God. This would have never happened
                    if there was a God.

                              ALISTER (CON’T)
                    Oh my thoughts went crazy that day,
                    but that was the day my path would
                    split and I would go down the road
                    that had no path. I was making my
                    own way. Or this is what I thought.

          Page 4 Page 4

            Panel 1 Alister hears screams. Alister shakes his head as
            if he was trying to wake himself up from sleeping
            (dreaming).

                              ALISTER
                    What in the hell…

            Panel 2 He jumps on his hovercycle.

                              ALISTER
                    That was a tortuous scream.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: He goes down the road, Screams erupt
            again, he travels to where the screams have come from.

                              ALISTER
                    Who ever this person is they sound
                    like hell has come to take there
                    soul.

                              ALISTER (CON’T)
                    This of course is all to common
                    today, but there still was
                    something in the scream.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: He sees that there is a girl running as
            fast as she can.

            Panel 5 Panel 5: Behind her is a man chasing her. Alister
            with his spiritual sight can see that the man is possessed
            by a demon. (Need to somehow show that he is a man and
            that he has maybe a silhouette of a demon.

                              MAN
                    Come here limitless bitch.

                              WOMAN
                    Aaaaahh!!!

          Page 5 Page 5

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister up close.

                              ALISTER
                         (says to himself)
                    This is sure getting old. These
                    demons will never learn.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Alister drives ahead of the girl and man
            and stops his hovercycle in front of the girl.

                              ALISTER
                         (saying to himself)
                    I can’t let this girl be captured,
                    I just can’t.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: He grabs the girls arm and pulls the girl
            behind him.

                              ALISTER
                    Get behind me, now, I’ll protect
                    you.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister gets off his hovercycle.

            Panel 5 Panel 4: The man close up of the man who is
            chaising the girl.

                              MAN
                    Oh it’s you, the White Warrior,
                    haha the Holy Warrior.

            Panel 6 Panel 5: With a stern look on his face.

                              ALISTER
                    Yes it is I.

          Page 6 Page 6

            Panel 1 Panel 1: The man tears off his skin to reveal the
            big demon.

                              ALISTER
                         (to himself)
                    What in the world is this demon
                    doing.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: As his hand is on his sword.

                              ALISTER
                         (thinks to himself)
                    This is new.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Alister then takes his sword out of its
            sheath. A look at Alister pointing at the man while the
            girl is behind him.

                              ALISTER
                    You know I can destroy you with one
                    blow of my sword.

          Page 7 Page 7

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Close up of the demon.

                              DEMON
                    You think so eh.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Another view of Alister and the girl.

                              ALISTER
                    Yes. I know so I have the power of
                    Christ on my side.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Close up of the demon.

                              DEMON
                    I want to see you try, little man.
                    I think you’re weaker then you
                    know.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: He points to a building that has graffiti
            on it. (Somewhere write small but enough that you can
            still see it: CTFxC)

                              ALISTER
                    Go, inside that building. I’ll take
                    care of this demon swine.

          Page 8 Page 8

            Panel 1 SPLASH Page: Alister runs at the demon as the
            demon runs toward him. The demon throws a punch.

                              ALISTER
                    I will destroy you with the power
                    of the Lord.

                              DEMON
                    No.  You don’t have the power that
                    you think you do, you are weaker
                    than I.

          Page 9 Page 9

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister dodges, and slashes his sword at
            the demon.

                              ALISTER
                    With the Power of Christ I will
                    defeat you

            Panel 2 Panel 2: He then hits the demon but nothing
            happens.

                              ALISTER
                    What that should have destroyed
                    you.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: The demon says with a snarl. (Close up)

                              DEMON
                    I guess your faith has started to
                    dwindle and I am stronger then your
                    so called sword from God.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: The demon runs inside the building.
            Alister chases after the demon.

                              ALISTER
                         (Talking to himself)
                    What the hell is going on? Why is
                    this demon wining?

            Panel 5 Panel 5: Alister looks around the inside of the
            building, it looks familiar to him.

                              ALISTER
                    I know this building, it can’t be.

          Page 10 Page 10: Alister flashes back to when he owned the
          building and he met Satan’s Minions.

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister is on the second floor leaning
            against a lattice. There comes a voice behind him.

                              STEVE
                    Dude, what are you doing just
                    looking at everyone?

                              ALISTER:
                    Shut up Steve. I’m just making sure
                    everyone is having a good time.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Alister turns to face to Steve.

                              ALISTER
                    You know I strive to make my
                    patrons happy. So, Just let me be
                    Steve.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: He starts to walk toward a table that had
            two mugs of beer on it.

                              STEVE
                    Come, sit and drink your beer.

                              ALISTER
                    I’m coming you piece of….

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister now sitting at the table.

                              STEVE
                    Alister you kiss my ass.

                              ALISTER
                    Kiss your what Steve?

            Panel 5 Panel 5: Alister with his fist in front of Steve’s
            face.

                              ALISTER
                    Do you want to kiss this.

                              STEVE
                    Um. no.

          Page 11 Page 11

            Panel 1 Panel 1: With a frightened stare. Alister beer in
            hand.

                              STEVE
                    I’m fine.

                              ALISTER
                    That’s what I thought.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Outside of the building rain poured down,
            and in the shadows a group of people walk toward the door
            of the building.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: The door opens up. You see a group of
            people with guns.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister looks down from the balcony
            lattice to see why the music has stopped and people who
            were having a good time were silent.

          Page 12 Page 12

            Panel 1 Panel 1: One of the people in the group points
            there gun to the ceiling and fires.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: People look towards the group and the
            band that was playing and others start to run out the
            front and back doors.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Alister pulls his gun.

                              ALISTER
                    What the hell are you doing here.
                    What the fuck do you want.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: The group points there gun toward the
            people in the club.

                              LEADER
                    We are Satan’s Minions and we are
                    here to take over. But we don’t
                    want just this building we have
                    come to take over the city and make
                    it, SatansVille. Hahahaha.

          Page 13 Page 13

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister’s posse takes out there weapons
            and points them toward Satan’s Minions.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Alister close up.

                              ALISTER
                    Like hell, you’re taking over.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Gun fire erupts from both sides.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Blood is flying everywhere and people are
            going down.

          Page 14 Page 14

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Both sides are still shooting, and people
            are running.  We see more getting hit by bullets, blood
            splashing everywhere.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: You see Alister behind a table.

                              ALISTER
                    Shit, Shit, Shit. What’s going on?
                    What did I do to deserve this? Ugh,
                    what am I fucking supposed to do?
                    To bad there isn’t a God, he might
                    be able to save us, me.

          Page 15 Page 15

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister is shooting as he goes down the
            stairs.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Alister jumps behind the bar.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: As he hides behind the bar he now notices
            he is bleeding from his arm.

                              ALISTER
                    Damn it.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister peaks his head over the bar.

                              ALISTER
                         (To himself)
                    I need to get out of here.

            Panel 5 Panel 5: Alister jumps the bar and heads towards
            the back door.

                              ALISTER
                         (Thought)
                    Come on legs, move.

          Page 16 Page 16

            Panel 1 Panel 1: We see Alister just outside the door
            behind him. The rain still coming down lightning flashes.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Alister is running and being chased by
            some of Satan’s Minions. They are still shooting. Blam
            blam.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Alister is shot in the leg, blood goes
            everywhere.

                              ALISTER
                    Shit…my leg.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister starts to run up a hill. Bleeding
            abundantly from his arm and leg.

            Panel 5 Panel 5: He sees a rock.

                              ALISTER
                    I must make it behind.

          Page 17 Page 17

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister holding his arm is able to reach
            and get behind the rock.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: We see a close up of Alister’s arm bloody

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Lightning strikes close to Alister and
            the rock.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister rips his pants to check out his
            wound.

                              ALISTER
                    Shit, what the hell am I going to
                    do now?

            Panel 5 Panel 5: Alister now trying to tear his trench
            coat to cover his wounds.

          Page 18 Page 18

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Lightning striking even closer this time
            to Alister.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Some of Satan’s Minions that had chased
            Alister stop shooting.

                              MINION
                    That rock can’t protect you
                    forever. You’re bleeding bad,
                    you’ll want to get that looked at
                    before you lose to much blood and
                    die.

                              ALISTER
                    What the fuck do you want with me?
                    Why did you follow me?

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Close up of Alister. Finishing tieing his
            leg off. Arm is already tied off, both are tied with parts
            of his trench coat.

                              ALISTER
                    I’m not leaving this spot, so you
                    guys miles well sit.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Lightning strikes at the feet of Satan’s
            Minions.

                              MINION
                    Looks like your lucky day, or maybe
                    not. This lightning saved you from
                    us, but if you stay there who knows
                    if it will finally strike you. That
                    would help us.

          Page 19 Page 19

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Moments later lightning strikes the rock.

                              ALISTER
                    Shit that was to close.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Alister now looks over the left of the
            rock to see if those who had chased him that were part of
            Satan’s Minions had actually left.

                              ALISTER
                    Be gone, be gone, be gone.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Satan’s Minions no longer on the other
            side of the rock. Alister gets up.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister sees a dagger on the rock where
            the lightning struck.

                              ALISTER
                    Now what’s this? I didn’t see this
                    before. It would have been nice to
                    have this when I was trying to rip
                    at my trench coat.

            Panel 5 Panel 5: Close up of the dagger. (Need to talk
            about the design.)

          Page 20 Page 20

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister reaches for the dagger.

                              ALISTER
                    But what in the hell, how did this
                    get here in the first place?

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Alister picks up the dagger, looking at
            it intensely.

                              ALISTER
                    This looks expensive.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: As it lay in the palm of both hands
            warmth comes over him.

                              ALISTER
                    What’s going on?

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Blood stops dripping from his leg and
            arm.

                              ALISTER
                    The pain it, it’s gone.

            Panel 5 Panel 5: Alister places the dagger in his right
            hand, as he looks at his arm he sees nothing.

            Panel 6 Panel 6: Alister bends down, he looks at his leg,
            he sees nothing.

                              ALISTER
                    What happened to my wounds?

          Page 21 Page 21

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister looks at the dagger again.

                              ALISTER
                    What the Fu…

            Panel 2 Panel 2: Lightning strikes just right of Alister.

                              ALISTER
                    Holy shit that was so much closer.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Alister places the dagger back on the
            rock.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister starts to walk away when he is
            struck by lightning.

          Page 22 Page 22

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister wakes up in a white place, he
            can’t see anything but himself.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: His anger left him, he smiled ear to ear.

                              ALISTER
                    Why am I smiling? I just had been
                    shot and now there is nothing I can
                    see.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Alister walks and looks around.

                              GOD
                    Alister come fourth.

                              ALISTER
                    Come fourth, I can’t see anything.
                    How am I supposed to know where to
                    go?

                              GOD
                    You have been chosen.

                              ALISTER
                    Chosen for what?

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister sits down on the whiteness.

                              GOD
                    Your blood is what has chosen you;
                    you are a descendant of a man who
                    promised loyalty and obedience.

                              ALISTER
                    My blood, descendant, I don’t know
                    what you mean. Who the hell are
                    you?

                              GOD
                    I am the Lord thy God.

          Page 23 Page 23 Alister flashes back to the empty building.

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister attention was now looking at the
            balcony where he saw the demon with the girl over his
            shoulder.

                              ALISTER
                    That seemed so very long ago.

            Panel 2 Panel 2: We get a close up of the demons face,

                              DEMON
                    Come get me you little piece of
                    shit.

                              ALISTER
                    I am not a little piece of
                    anything.

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Alister runs toward the stairs.

            Panel 4 Panel 4: He reaches the second level and sees the
            demon head for the window.

                              ALISTER
                         (Yelling)
                    Where do you think you’re going
                    demon?

            Panel 5 Panel 5: The demon turns toward Alister, girl
            still over its shoulder.

                              DEMON
                    I’m taking this girl and I’m going
                    to sacrifice her and let my father
                    have her soul.

                              ALISTER
                    There is only one Father.

                              DEMON
                    Ha I’m not talking about him I’m
                    talking about my father Satan.

            Panel 6 Panel 6: The demon jumps out the window.

            Panel 7 Panel 7: Alister looks out the window and sees
            nothing.

                              ALISTER
                    I…I didn’t, I couldn’t save her.

          Page 24 Page 24

            Panel 1 Panel 1: Alister puts his sword back in his sheath
            and starts to walk down the stairs.

                              ALISTER
                    Why? Why?

            Panel 2 Panel 2: As Alister walks out of the building.

                              ALISTER
                    What is wrong with me? Why,
                    couldn’t I save that girl?”

            Panel 3 Panel 3: Alister arrives back at his hovercycle.

                              ALISTER
                    God what’s going on? I have never
                    not defeated a fow with this sword.
                    What in the world is going on?

            Panel 4 Panel 4: Alister flies off.

                              ALISTER
                    I never seen a demon rip off human
                    flesh like it was cloths. And then
                    I wasn’t able to save not only a
                    soul but the girl. The girl looked
                    so, I don’t know what’s wrong with
                    me. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!

            Panel 5 Panel 5: Alister sees the church on the hill the
            light that pireced through the darkness seemed to be
            getting smaller.

Script for Issue 1 of The Legacy comic book


What do you want?

I was asked why I was doing a blog if it didn’t deal with what I’m doing and that is writing. Why aren’t you talking or showing off some of what you write? So I decided since I want to be a comic book writer (or at least it’s my main focus right now) that I would put something up for everyone to see and hear me talk about it. That I did in a previous post.

Now it’s up to you!

Do you want to hear about my comic book writing or would you like to see a sample script or just other writing? Let me know in the comments below.

What do you want?


Memories

We should not look at the past with regrets, but as the past with memories that we will never forget.

Memories


Marriage

Well, my wife and I have been together for over 7 years now and married 5. We seem to have tiffs her and there and really no explosions really. So when I was getting situated on my medication, I blew up. Then last night again I blew up. However, I more felt that she was being selfish because I told her that we went to my hometown to see my mom and possibly some friends. Well, my wife was sick of hearing about my dead stepfather and didn’t want to be in the house anymore so she walked to our friends. Well, I was about to walk out the door to go home because I had school work, and the dogs hadn’t gone to the “Potty” for 12 hours. Again, I just wanted to go see mom talk hang help then home. Well, my wife was at our friends, so I went over to pick her up. However, she was pissed at me because she wanted to hang with them. I yelled and told her that we don’t need to hang out or see them every time we went to my home town. Well, She stormed out of car, and I drove off. I found myself wondering what I did wrong, but I felt I did nothing but yell. So I went back to pick her up. 3 hours later we finally set out to go home. I was tired as hell and worried about the dogs. She just wanted to get away from things happening around her that she felt was pushing her in a whole well I knew of some stress, but I was surprised to hear her say she didn’t want to hear about death, and she has had enough death in her family. I thought isn’t death a part of life, and we just need to remember but move on? Well needless to say we did talk for a while and got it out of our way. I did know marriage was daily work. I didn’t know it would be a part of my life’s work, but then again, there I go thinking again.

Marriage


Suicide

I thought of this today “suicide” not in the way to commit it as I was to do something harmful to myself in response to life’s ever evolving and ever disappointing battle. I thought of this as why do I want to destroy something that I have struggled with for many years. Do I want to give up, do I give a damn? I, however, found myself in a pit a deep one. One with many thoughts and droughts about myself. I didn’t know where to turn so I opened my email read the scripture of the day and then opened my mind to the possibilities that are never ending. I wanted to commit “suicide” in the way that I wanted to give up on writing and dreaming, but then I said if I don’t dream I don’t hope if I don’t hope, subsequently I don’t believe things will change or get better. So now I dream to hope, hope to dream life will run like a river stream with bumps, ups and downs, but then I know I made it around to the other side of the river, and there I will find a calm open mind to let things flow out like a gentle breeze.

Suicide


Bio

The writer of these words did not originally want to put words to paper, but to draw the glorious things he saw. However, he could not draw from images in his mind. He could only draw those things he saw that had been drawn by others. He then almost died one day and that urge to draw became the urge to write. Again, however, the fuel was not always there, and before he knew it it was his senior year of high school, and he was tasked to write a 50page novella for a final project. This became the fuel and started his path of being a full-time writer. He may have struggled and may have made no difference in the world of man nor money in his hand, but he still moves forward. He currently is writing a comic book that has an artist who draws the things that are envisioned. Life could be better, but it could be always worse. So he keeps his head low to write but high to live life. This is the story about this man, to know more, read the words he has put before the world via the web.

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