I?ve seemed to have lost my will to write and to be productive. I used to be a good worker, now I feel I don?t do a thing. I used to love to write, but have had my months of my mind being in a desert. Now, I know what I need to be doing, but why can?t I start doing it. My mind wants to be entertained, but why can?t I make my own entertainment instead of watching it on my screen. Why can?t I do and not just say? I?ve fought with myself because I want to lose weight, and yet I can?t do it. I can say it fine. I need help, but it?s for me to do and no one else. Someone can help me get motivated and encourage me, but I have to do the work. Ugh! I? I..need help! Who will come forth and do so? Who really is a friend to me? Who really cares?